Harmonious Union Diary: Divine Feminine Update!
Hi fam, happy Saturday! :) Gabe & I are about 3 and a half weeks or so in to our HTFU (🥰hooray🥰), and we've got soo much to share with you all!
Main highlights we've been healing this week:
1. Exploring our DM & DF Energies
2. Learning How to Have True Relationship
3. Proper "Fighting" with Your Twin Flame
4. Life Purpose, Life Purpose, LIFE PURPOSE!
1. Exploring our DM & DF Energies
Earlier this week, I was watching (Sermon #32 The Second Coming of Christ Through Twin Flames: https://twinflamesuniverse.com/tfas-sermon-23/). In it, Shaleia talks about healing her relationship with her weight. During this process, she realized she had been gaining unnecessary weight because, essentially, she thought she was Jeff. She says something along the lines of, "We're so close, we're One, I feel him all the time." So because of this, it was easy for her to confuse herself and mistakenly think that she's him, and take on his masculine traits as a result.
I found myself relating to this very strongly.
Especially being around Gabe all the time now - I can definitely affirm, it's true –
When you're with your Twin Flame, and especially being in HTFU, you have completely returned to ALL OF YOURSELF.
You have truly returned home to ALL of YOU.
It's a completely different experience of life than that of being in separation. And it feels sooo Divinely good and normal and really – like you're Home.
Being around Gabe, I can feel now how I have always felt Gabe so much within me growing up and pre-HTFU that, deeply desiring my Divine Masculine in my life, I naturally took on his masculine personality traits, clothing style, etc very strongly.
Because I feel so close to him within, some part of me has genuinely believed that I AM him, or I'm the Divine Masculine in the Union. But it's just a misalignment with the Truth, so, we've been going deeper with surrendering and releasing each other's masculinity and femininity back to each other.
Gabe & I were joking this morning about we wish there was a switch we could just press and suddenly all of his Divine Masculine traits would return to him and all of my Divine Feminine traits would return to me.
And while there is a switch for that (it's called the Mirror Exercise), it's still a process of growth and learning. And the process never ends, because you're always going deeper with God!! How amazing is that? 🙌
It also reminds me of a recent Church of Union service (this one: https://youtu.be/LwA31kTDr3U) where Jeff talks about how if you get the thing you wanted, the prize, but you didn't have the journey with God along the way to bring you there– well, you didn't actually get what you wanted at all. Because all you want is God and the deep, rich meaning God has for you in every single lesson along the way, as well as what God actually has in store for you versus your expectation of what you think God has in store for you.
This lesson is so deeply relieving for me– there IS infinite and rich purpose to our journeys every step of the way, and we're continuing to go deeper in every moment. 🥰
2. How to Have True Relationship
This has been a big lesson for me this week. As Gabe & I have really started to deepen into our perfect relationship, co-dependent and abusive patterns from previous soul-mate relationships have naturally surfaced to be healed.
While Gabe has not had many serious relationships in this lifetime before me, I've had many, the majority of which were frankly not very emotionally healthy.
Something I am really learning and seeing in action is the truth that: You don't need your Twin Flame to do anything for you. At all. But with a healthy, proper relationship with them, you get to and you absolutely do have it ALL with them.
At certain points during the week, I found myself in places of anger and bitterness (finger-pointing, blame, "why-won't-he-do-this-for-me-wahh" whineyness). But anytime I find myself in those places, it's A. A perfect reminder that I need to take responsibility for myself and do the Mirror Exercise and B. An opportunity to choose compassion and patience and gentleness with myself as I upheave.
Gabe is always, always pointing me back toward God, and I am always doing the same for him.
And even when I'm upheaving or doing my inner healing work, I'm realizing I can always, at the very least, be respectful. Let myself off the hook, let my Twin Flame off the hook. He's just a person, a fellow innocent and perfect child of God, and so am I. Learning🌟❤️
3. How to Properly "Fight" with Your Twin Flame:
Gabe and I were really going at it last night, yelling, fighting. Gabe even said, "I feel like we fight all the time!"
I thought about it and realized he was completely wrong, we don't fight all the time. We work peacefully, we cook together peacefully 3x a day, we hang out and do inner work together peacefully. The majority of our days we actually are pretty peaceful with each other (as long as we keep up with our inner work and ONLY then!).
BUT - what I realized he was saying is, when things feel bad between us, they feel REALLY FUCKING BAD.
And it's because when we "fight," as Twin Flames, the upset is SO amplified, it's just dying to be healed and dying to be loved. It's the part of us that's crying out the most for love, and it's obvious.
And, like Jeff & Shaleia say, all upsets between Twin Flames are simply miscommunications, because we're always in perfect agreement at our core.
In the middle of one of our fights this week, we decided to just sit down and watch TFAS and feel God's message for us, and it alleviated tensions and soothed us enormously: W7 #52 of TFAS: Healing Twin Flame Rejection Like A Boss: https://twinflamesuniverse.com/tfas-all-class-pass-w7class-52-healing-twin-flame-rejection-like-a-boss/
This class is sooo gosh darn good. The ten minute role-play where Shaleia melts Jeff into the ground with Truth & Love towards the end – omg SO GOOD. (This bit is also a Sermon if you have Sermons of TFAS).
I started channeling Shaleia's powerful, loving stance from that class during one of our fights the next night, and Gabe was so melted by it, he literally laid down on the ground, deeply desiring to feel his feelings and surrender from my Love, Lol. So good.
Fighting with your Twin Flame is so normal and so safe, and you WILL inevitably go deeper with them when you choose Love at every turn. 💪❤️
4. Life Purpose, Life Purpose, LIFE PURPOSE!
One major realization we've also had this week is that there is absolutely no purpose to having or maintaining your Harmonious Twin Flame Union unless you are actively pursuing and cultivating your Life Purpose.
It straight up FEELS BAD TO BE TOGETHER if we are hesitant or downright avoiding our Life Purpose work.
Like SO FUCKING BAD.
Yeah, you have to pursue Life Purpose if you want to maintain and keep your HTFU. There's truly, truly no purpose to being together otherwise.
If we didn't pursue our Life Purpose, we would easily fall away from each other and our HTFU would completely die, easily.
Okay, so I have to pursue my Life Purpose if I want to be with and stay with my true Twin Flame? YES!!!!
And this is a very, VERY good thing!
This realization has propelled me forward to heal so much I've been putting off with my Life Purpose.
I actually am starting to feel really, really good about work since moving through a lot of bad feelings, so to finally experience peace in this area - feels SOOOOOO good!
If you're not in HTFU yet, I can't recommend healing your Life Purpose blocks enough – it is soo more than worth it to have as much of your Life Purpose foundation established before coming into HTFU so the Love between you and your Twin Flame can flow more easily when they are naturally magnetized into your Life.
Okay, I could go on forever, but I think that's all for now. We'll likely make a 4 Week Video HTFU Update in a few days :)
Love you guys! Thanks for reading ❤️